Today is the day when my life is gonna change. I've never failed any subject before in my Uni-life but I have failed one paper this semester. My mood totally changed. All my plans that I have planned, I have totally no more mood for them. Don't feel like going out anymore. Feel like stopping all my current activities.
I know failing is not the end of your life. But I still cannot accept this failure. I have did sufficient enough to pass. How the hell did I failed? There are 4 students from Diploma including me who enrolled into the same Degree program. I'm not the best nor the lousiest. But I got the lowest marks among them. WTF?
When I was checking my results I was so chill and calm because I know that I'm gonna pass this semester. It took me awhile before I could get into Izone. So I was patient. Finally after some time I managed to login and check my results. When I saw my results I was shocked and stunned. How could this happen? Am I dreaming? How could I fail? The paper that I failed is the paper that I put most effort in.
In the paper, they asked to answer 4/6 questions. Each question carries 25/100 marks. I only know how to do 2 questions and I did not leave the other 2 questions blank. I tried my best to crap out of it. I know how to do 2 questions and I could at least gotten 15marks each and for the other 2 questions maybe 4-5marks each? If that is so then should have passed. But the FUCKING thing is I got 28/100 for the whole paper. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? Give me a clean 40% I'll also be glad but 35%? WTF IS WRONG?
I even pass my Human Resource Management in my previous semester which I have totally no confident in it but how can I fail a paper which I have confident in it? Totally doesn't make any sense at all. I know Sunway University College have just changed into Sunway University. But you don't have to fail students like that right?!
I've studied so hard. Even on my 21st Birthday. I sat at home and study. Exam is more important to me. So I made it priority. My dad is expecting a 2nd upper class honours and expect me not to fail at all. I also don't wanna waste my time and my parents money. They still have my younger sister and brother to pay for their Uni. I also don't wanna be a burden to my family.
My parents were never happy with my academic results. Especially in my primary and secondary school life. Always getting scolded every time I get my report card. Really pass with flying red colours @@
UPSR, PMR and SPM. All also lost to my siblings. That's kinda sad. But this time in Uni I've improved a lot. I'm much more hardworking. I've never failed before until today. This is why I'm so disappointed and down.
I'm going to meet up with my lecturer and ask for a recheck. Hope it's just some kind of prank =.=" If this is true I really don't know how am I gonna tell my parents zzz